October 11, 2011

A Year of 18

Last October...
I was running 10 mile runs every other day for fun.
I was spinning and crashing on smiles and heartache in the course of a few weeks.
I was counting down days to go visit my sister in Europe.
I was 17 going on 18.
I was waiting to hear back from Disney.
I was a month away from graduation.
I was road tripping with Payton on perfect Autumn days just to get in the car and drive.
I was learning a lot about the consequences of sin.
I was loving the colored leaves.
I was listening to Mayday Parade nonstop.

Since last October...
I turned 18.
I graduated high school.
I moved halfway across the country to my own apartment to start a new job.
I spent Easter working a 12 hour day till 4 am.
I met hundreds of people from all over the world who changed my life.
I got a glimpse of my weaknesses and strengths.
I had my heart broken by a broken generation.
I ran from relationships like nothing else.
I laughed my way through parade vending and crazy days in the Magic Kingdom.
I ate way too many Mickey Premium bars.
I met the biggest Mayday Parade fan in the world...and she happened to live in my apartment.
I finished a 6 month long internship at the age of 18.
I moved back to Oklahoma to start college.
I met another group of friends who are so completely different from the people who changed my life in Florida...but I think that they'll steal my heart just as completely.

Today...
I'm 24 hours away from turning 19.
I'm looking back at a crazy year of life shaking, world re-arranging, heart altering, incredible memories.
I'm feeling so blessed by all of the people I've had the privilege of meeting in the past year.
I'm really wishing I was in Europe again right now, just because I still have the travel bug.
I'm trying to learn what it means to let down the guards around my heart just a little bit more.
I'm a little sad and a little reluctant to let go of this year, which isn't my typical reaction.
I'm most definitely listening to Mayday Parade as I write this.

This past year was huge for me. So many mile stones. My first paycheck. My first rent bill. Grocery shopping. Car wrecks. Real life. Adulthood. I'm so glad that my 17 going on 18 year old self couldn't see into the future, because I probably would have been crazy overwhelmed with the changes that would happen. As it is, taking this year one day at a time changed my life in the sneakiest of ways. It was an amazing year. A year of skydiving, adventures, non stop action, and the hardest faith but the most worthwhile relationship with God that I've ever had. I wonder where this next year will take me. I wonder what will happen in my life. There are so many things that I'm hoping for, track season, studying abroad, sophomore year, the new Mayday Parade CD, and a million memories to make with the new friends in my life. So here's to the lessons yet to be learned, the pictures yet to be taken, the memories yet to be made...here's to one another trip around the sun. :)