November 5, 2011

October 16

Fall break.
Two words that I've been dreaming of for the past two weeks. And here they are, squished between cooler weather and bonfires. I've pulled out the sweaters that I packed away when I moved to Florida. I've slid into the hot tub on chilly nights for the first time in months. I've been picking away at the strings from my (dad's) collection of guitars (hehe).
Fall break.
It couldn't come fast enough this year. Despite the large amount of homework that I still need to do, escaping from two days of classes is a much needed relief. There may still be a hard midterm to come on Tuesday, but today is Friday, and Friday means rest for me.
Autumn is such a beautiful time of the year, one of my favorites. It's the one time of the year when everybody seems to get reflective together. We think about the things that we're thankful for, the people we love, and the food that we're looking forward to because for some reason or another, we only make it once a year (shout out to Thanksgiving on this one!) But for me, this year is so different.
This year is a fall break spent reflecting on things to come. I've had my share of looking back over the past year, because let's be honest, it was a doozy. I told my dad the other day that 2010 was a year of closure, 2010 was the year of finishing things up. I finished highschool, I finished my time in Ponca City, I finished up a stage in my life...but 2011, man 2011 was my year of jumping off of the high dive into a whole new life. It was a beginning year, beginning to live on my own, beginning new jobs in new cities, beginning college, beginning the next phase of my life. So if I'm to reflect on this year it keeps pulling me back to tomorrow, the "what comes next". That's where my reflections are taking me this weekend, into the next stages of my life, not into a past reflective mode.
This autumn I'm facing challenges that I haven't faced before, and some of them are knocking me off my feet, but just like the challenges that I learned to love in Florida, I like being pushed past my limit. I like running through the pain because I want to go the distance. I like looking at the next few months and knowing that I need to give the tasks at hand my all or nothing 



“There are two mistakes one can make along the road
to truth - not going all the way, and not starting.”