December 13, 2011

Finish Line - Finals Weeks

My first week as a college student going through the routines of finals. Study dates. Coffee. Sugar. Naps. Exhaustion. Laughing at a million things that any other week this semester, would not have been that funny. It's the combination of tired minds and the closeness of Christmas that have a way of exciting every college student on this campus. We're sleepy. We're tired of school. We're done with our classes. And we are so so close to the finish line.
That's the nice thing about college, there are mini goals in sight. It's not like I'm sitting here as a freshman thinking "I have three and a half long years ahead of me." I'm sitting here thinking, "One more day until I have finished my first semester as a full time college student. Man time flies." This semester has gone by so quickly.
It's been an awesome semester, but it's been hard. It's been good because it needed to be hard. Needs to be hard. I need to struggle. I need to feel the tension between where I am and where I am supposed to be. Discovering my in the moment purpose has been hard for me to uncover after a season of life where my purpose was so crystal clear. I have my long term goals, but I haven't figured out my short term goals yet.
Maybe that's what trips me up. I spent so long on short term goals to accomplish one really big long term goal, and now that I've finished the long term goal, now that I've climbed the mountain, I still haven't figured out how to get back down gracefully. I haven't learned how to move from one phase of life to the next.
But those thoughts will have to wait for another day. Right now, there is an Intro to Politics study guide to write and a final to study for. It's a good feeling knowing that the finish line is in sight.