August 31, 2012

Serve Somebody - But Who?

Who do you live for? 

I go to a Christian university. 
I live in the Bible belt. 
 I've lived outside of the Bible belt. 
I've lived as far from a Christian university as you can live, with 10,000 other college students.

Both worlds. 
Two very different college dynamics.
And the question keeps coming up...
"Who do you live for?"

Will you live for your family?
Your friends?
Will you live for your love?
The next paycheck?
Will you live for the responsibilities on your plate? 
Will you live for your dreams?
Will you live for you ambitions? 

In the past 2.5 years I have almost constantly been surrounded by college age students. 
This question infiltrates every group, every background, every major, every religion.
My peers are constantly answering it...and I'm watching.

I'm watching peers live for school work. 
Papers. 
Classes.
4.0 GPA's. 
I'm watching peers live for their sports. 
Seconds off a time. 
One more mile.
One more pass.
I'm watching peers live for their ambitions. 
Career goals. 
Money. 
Security.
I'm watching peers live for God. 
Reckless abandon to this world.
Service.
Forgiveness. 

Everyone, every heart beat on this planet, every lung filling up with air, every smile on every face...every piece of every person is here for a reason. 

So...
Who do you live for?
Why does your heart beat?
Why are your lungs filling with air?
Why do you smile or cry?
What is your passion?
What is your purpose?

I can't seem to find myself asking, "What do you live for?" Because regardless of your answer "money, fame, music, ect." all of those answers can be thrown into two categories. 

Yourself. 
or
God. 

So...who?

And it is so, so easy to live for yourself. 
"I need to do this..."
"I want this..."
"Me, my, I..." 
And it is so, so much harder to say,
"Not my will, but Thine."
"Your name be glorified."
"You are the author of my life."

I struggle.
I fight.
I want to write my own story. 
I have the best intentions. 
Service.
Availability. 
Compassion. 
But when left to my own designs, I fall short constantly. 
I stretch myself thin serving a million good causes and forgetting why I believe in them.
Because for me, it works like this: 

I love God, therefore, I want to serve people. 

Not:

I love people, therefore I want to serve God.

The first heart's desire will lead me down many paths of fulfillment in the will of God.
The second choice will ultimately turn people into my god and God into my excuse. 

I am weak. 
I am human. 
I am stretched thin.
But I love God.
And I want to serve Him.


This post may seem... staccato. 
Thoughts bouncing back and forth. 
But I have this pressing question on my mind, and these are my words. 
I am realizing every day how easy it is to live for yourself. 
Even when your intentions are good, if your actions do not follow, then your intentions are worthless.
I don't want to have worthless intentions.
I want to be intentional.
I want to live to serve God.

Deuteronomy 13:4

It is the Lord your God you must follow, and him you must revere. Keep his commands and obey him; serve him and hold fast to him.



Malachi 3:18

18 And you will again see the distinction between the righteous and the wicked, between those who serve God and those who do not.


Matthew 6:24

24 “No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.


1 Peter 4:11 

11 If anyone speaks, they should do so as one who speaks the very words of God. If anyone serves, they should do so with the strength God provides,so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen.