September 15, 2012

Twenty-Something Autumn Thoughts

Hands shaking, shivering, teeth chattering. 
Grey cloudy skies overhead. 
And pins and needles all up and down my leg from my foot falling asleep. 
The tennis club is cold this afternoon. So very chilly. Unless some unexpected people show up the club is mine today. If I were a good student I would begin to work on the pile of homework that needs finishing. 

But...if I were a bad student...

I would be blogging right now. 

Well lookee there, I appear to be a bad student. Oh well oh well. 
I'm cuddled up in an oversized jacket that I found in the back room of the office, contemplating 2012 and all of the things that have happened this year. 
Oh, and I'm switching between Jon McLaughlin's "Promises, Promises" album and Graham Colton's "Twentysomething". Want to know something cool? I know Graham Colton. He plays tennis here all the time. I only discovered last week that he's a bigger deal than I thought. And I like his music. A lot.
Anyway, point is: 2012. 
It's already September, which is such a crazy thought. 
One year ago I was saying "Last month at Disney World..." and "I don't think I'll ever get married..." 
Last September I was listening to Daughtry and reminiscing about walking through the Magic Kingdom.
Last September I was experiencing running injuries for the first time in my life, and for the first time in my life I discovered what it feels like to have a team supporting you every step of the way.
In the course of a year, there have been some God sized shake up's. 
I specifically remember thinking as I started college, "I just learned so much in Florida, I honestly can't even immagine what lessons I need to learn." 
I didn't mean that in a prideful way, but I really couldn't see how God was going to work in my life.
All I could see was my little portion of pie. 
In those moments at the beginning of last fall, I had climbed a mountain top and didn't know where the next peak or valley was. 
God takes those moments. 
Tenderly he takes them, if you let Him. 
He took my life and gave me friends and acquaintances that challenged me in my faith. Situations that encouraged growth. Challenges that demanded humility. Moments that needed patience. 
Right when I begin to reach those points when I say, "What else can you teach me, God?"
He sure shows up. 

Sidenote:
Something creepy just happened.
I started hearing noises likes someone tapping on a window and I didn't know where they were coming from. Let me stress this idea, it is totally empty in here.
So I just slid down behind the counter and began creeping around to see where the noises were coming from. 
It was, to my embarrassment, maintenance cleaning the windows outside. 
All in a day's work. 

This is one of those rambly blogs that I like to write every once in awhile. 
A mix of what God is doing in my life and what I'm doing at this current moment.
 Sometimes the two things line up, sometimes...not so much.

My thoughts today are almost anywhere but where I am. I keep jumping location to location in my head.
Thoughts of Hawaii are spurred on by the pictures my parents are sending me right now. Today's their last day on the Big Island for this trip. It's weird knowing that they're there right now without us. We have so many good memories from our Hawaii trips. But if I'm honest, I like having parents that have adventures, with or without their kids. I want to be like that.
Then I'm jumping in my thoughts to Joplin, where SNU XC raced this morning. Wishing with a hundred wishes that I could've cheered my team on this morning. 
But primarily, if I'm really going to be honest, I'm wishing I was curled up on my couch at home, next to a warm fire, sipping hot chocolate and reading a good book.
It's one of those days. 
One of those days that feels like fall is coming. 
Boot weather. 
Jacket weather. 
Writing weather.

Oh and hey, thanks for reading this blog, even when it's just thoughts. 
Because that's the best I can offer right now.
But I sincerely appreciate you.
Yes, you.
So thanks. 


this is where it all begins
i'm giving up on giving in now
i'm not afraid of where i've been
halfway between somewhere and nothing
woke up and i'm twenty something