January 24, 2013

A Post of Late Thankfuls

There is a very high chance that Thanksgiving is completely over. It is highly possible that we're overwhelmingly leaning towards "closer to Easter" then anywhere near "Thanksgiving is soon!" 
Regardless. A cup of thankfulness has been served to me recently and counting your blessings is always beneficial. 
May 18th is just a New York minute away, New Years Day and all its adventures are almost a month gone, and January 1, 2012 seems like yesterday. Last year was jam packed with living. Pure, emotional, adventurous, lesson learning living.
And I am thankful. 

I am thankful for my parents. Every day. Every time I'm with them. Every time that I am not. Time moves on, dynamics shift, the faces around the dinner table grow older and there are new faces added. I'm the baby in the family...which means that there are no more teenagers coming home from youth group talking about the ins and outs of their day. The scenery has changed in our family. And yet, it hasn't. The relationships are so good. The give and take of wisdom and enthusiasm are balanced. The blessings tremendous.  I'm thankful for my parents hospitality. My dad's examples of what generosity looks like. My mom's prayerful heart. The jokes that we play on each other and the knowledge that we are  a family, thick or thin, forever. The older I get the more and more I am thankful for this blessing, because I realize that it is unique in our society these days. 
I am thankful for encouragement. People who are blessed with this gift and who have showered it on me this year. This past semester was a semester where I wasn't able to give myself to so many of the relationships and activities that I was a part of last year. New jobs, new concerns, and new "real life" priorities entered into the picture, and I have often felt so weary and run down from putting my best effort into necessary but unrewarded areas. But the friends and people who have stepped in and said, "You are where you are supposed to be. You're doing a good job. We love you. We support you. We're your biggest fans even when feel like you're thrown under the bus and don't know where to go." People like that have come from unexpected places and have really lifted my spirits.. 
Along the same lines, I am truly thankful for good friends. The friends that prove their friendship time and time again. The friends that back you up, defend you, are there for you when you're barely hanging on. I'm thankful for the friends who recognize that friendship is a give and take, and the ebb and flow of that process changes from season to season. Sometimes you are the one giving, sometimes you are the one who needs so much more than you ever have before. I'm thankful for the friends who I would do anything for when they are in need, and for their generosity to be there for me when I have needed their uplifting spirits and helping hands. 
I am thankful for a slowly fading cynicism towards love. Thankful for a man who has entered into my life and changed my perspective on what love in the real world looks like. A man who forgives quicker than I do, has more patience then I possess, and acts much goofier in public than I would ever dream of acting.
Late thankfuls. Thanksgiving is long gone, but my heart is filled to the brim. I'm reminded tonight that life is much better when your heart is exposed, in the thick and especially in the thin. Vulnerability opens the doors to love. Love is hard. Love is messy. Love is a choice. Loving people isn't ever black and white, but it is always worth it. That's what I'm thankful for, every day, every moment. The people who bless my life so tremendously with their love.